Yamaguchi Maho posts on Twitter about her graduation and her final activities with NGT48, but most of all, a personal “thank you” to those who have supported her

As Yamaguchi Maho announced her graduation at an NGT48 Team G event, her post for fans via Twitter was just posted not long ago.

卒業発表を終えて今の気持ちを改めて書きました。
読んでくださると嬉しいです。 pic.twitter.com/dQoNd1XENn

— 山口真帆 (@maho_yamaguchi) April 25, 2019

Yamaguchi wrote the following:

I, Yamaguchi Maho, will be graduating from NGT48.

I am very sorry that I have to say this to all the fans but I wanted to do it while I’m smiling.

It took all that I had in order to hold back my tears after hearing the graduation announcements of Rika and Rena.

I loved AKB48 and idols but I disliked myself who had fallen in love with idols.

I disliked myself for fighting against my parents who opposed of me becoming an idol.

But if I hadn’t become an NGT48 member, I felt that perhaps I wouldn’t have to go through these feelings.

But I do think it was a good thing that I became a member of NGT48.

For those who always stood by my side and supported me, Rena, Riku and Mofu.  No matter what anyone said, I  believe we did the right thing and because of them I felt protected.

I feel that if I had done something irresponsible, I’m sure they would have been upset with me immediately.

I believe that we were friends who shared the same purposes and they helped me to believe.

And because these three supported me, I want to support them.

If I had not become a member of NGT48, I may have never known what true friendship is.

Meeting such wonderful friends is my treasure.

If I hadn’t become a member of NGT48, I wouldn’t have met all the fans who have kindly supported me.

All of you who have gone so far to use your time on me, who thought of me, I also thought about all of you everday.

It will always bother me that the final appearance that I would show my appearance was when I made that apology at that time.

I thought if the one that would be hurt was me instead of other members but I realized by doing so, I caused many worries for the fans.  I’m sorry for making such an appearance.

So, with the Final Stage performance, I want to make it through with a smile up to my graduation announcement but when I saw the news broadcast the following day, I wasn’t smiling at all and the image of me crying is what I remember.

With the last two handshakes and the Graduation State performance, I want to make you all smile.

Just as there are many sad emotions that I’ve shown you, I want to make you laugh in the end.

Just as you have all kept me going, this time I want to make you all happy.

With these events that have transpired, many people who didn’t know me, have kindly found me.

There are also people who tell me that they would’ve wanted to know me.

No matter of all the painful, hurtful and sad things that were part of my life, I’m so happy that had a chance to meet you and I thank you for meeting me.

Even when I was inactive, your messages, photos, illustrations filled my heart and encouraged me, that it made me happy.

I will be quitting as an idol but as a human being, I want to become a strong, kind woman who is worthy of all your love once again.

Even if you whisper behind me, I want to live upright and walk down the path that I truly believe in.

I want to show you a happy me this time and so you can all receive my happiness and the courage from my efforts because I will work hard to achieve my dream.

I won’t tell you to please support me but If you can, please watch over me.  That would make me happy.

All of you are my treasure.

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